more of the same
Tags: denial doubt expectations same blog
trying to focus my efforts more on this newgrounds comic contest has made me more selective with what i give my attention to. im feeling hyper conscious of the deadline and making progress on it has been my main task. So far, I've gotten a rough idea of the character and now I wanna pin down the visual identity of the story. Its still been very slow progress, and I'm really trying to give it my all.
In terms of STUPID BULLSHIT, i don't even know at this point. I relistened to it for the first time in a while yesterday. it isnt really as good as i remember it and i genuinely felt depressed listening through. well mission accomplished then.
since Yeat's new project dropped, i've felt inspired to make music again. well the desire is there but realistically, i wouldnt be able to fit making music into my schedule right now.
its all more of the same: im behind on something, an obstacle that is out of my control is preventing me from working, im trying my best, etc. i guess this is truly the final stages of creative evolution. does it ever change? i've been telling myself that "i need to escape the matrix"; need to find a way out of the expectations and standards that i didn't set. what can i do now?
like i said, doing a good job with this contest can give me assurance to continue pursuing comics and art with serious consideration. it can't stay like this.