aint on shiiiet
Tags: stupid bs mixing mastering album music drawing blog
its been a bit of a slower week, but i managed to squeeze in some time to mix and master more songs. im not getting as much creative free time to do what i want, but i think that feeling also comes from just being so backed up with finalizing this project. i really hate that i have to finish this album before i can move on to anything else. its been too long and i am getting bored. all thats really left is getting a final version of my tracks. some songs need more work than others but for the most part i should be able to get through them all in a couple of days. thats what i feel ive been telling myself for the past month though. "oh it'll only be a few more days" and thats been driving me crazy. like this project should be done and out of the way by now, and i still don't have an artwork made and it really doesn't deserve all of this because i hated this experience. overall, im so ready to move on and out of this whole thing. it gets more and more depressing having to go back to it and refine it.
why am i putting so much effort for a project im not even planning to promote?? i find myself asking. i don't know. maybe its the commitment to the "Platnm Standard" (an imaginary level of quality i set for myself in like 2021). i guess even though i didn't like the album creation process or what i went through during the creation, i still feel a dedication to representing my vision fully so i can get all the shit out of my system before i move on to more music.
i feel like when i finally close this chapter and put this whole thing behind me, it will be like a fresh reset and i won't feel as if i could've done a better job on STUPID B$. i really hate that feeling. more than i hate meticulously going back and re-mixing and re-mastering songs i don't even feel an emotional resonance towards.
on another note, ive continued to be drawing and tried doing a little digital art on my iPad with the new Apple Pencil I got last week. i mostly just doodled and practiced some sketching over the week, nothing too amazing.
in other news: its the 10 year aniversary of my first mixtape GRIT 😮